tired......

Boy am I tired today! We stayed up way too late last night. After I finally finished washing everything Isabella spit up on yesterday plus diapers I sat down and Dean got me "involved" in a movie! Which was pretty good so we stayed up to watch it together after the girls finally went to sleep. Friday I managed to get a bunch of stuff done around the house. I got my dining room clean (a few things left on the table need to be put away). I even threw some stuff away! I am proud of myself. Then I cleaned he carpet in there and in my living room. It was pretty clean for a few minutes, then the tornado called Aria made a touch down! I really don't know what I am going to do with her! She really doesn't like to clean so it results in lots of whining and tears! So I just got the clean diapers stuffed and put away, and desperately need a nap! I have to take Aria to church in a few minutes to go to her Sunday afternoon class. Maybe when I get back.....but then it will be time for dinner. Have I mentioned I also desperately need to get to the grocery store? Gotta squeeze that in somewhere. Aria starts swim lessons tomorrow. She will have them monday through friday for 2 weeks. Her birthday is also rapidly approaching and I still have no idea what we are doing! Fail! I usually have it planned months in advance. Things are a little different with more than one child. Hopefully she will enjoy whatever I manage to throw together. She says she wants to go swimming. So we will see. If anyone has a fantastic idea just let me know?

Then you were my baby, now you are my child.......

Last night I had some one on one cuddle time with Aria while she was trying to go to sleep. That is sort of rare these days as I am usually having to hold Isabella. She had fallen asleep in her bouncy seat for a little bit. We laid down and Aria wanted "sweetheart", her favorite doll (also the name of her imaginary friend who has been a part of our "family" for like 5 years now). Also, she has this thing she does when she is sleepy or just in need of comfort where she has to touch my face, she has just always done that. It is something I really love and I hope it will be a long time before she stops. Last night she wanted to hold my hand with her other hand, and I was noticing how big her hand is in mine now. It really made me sad because, her hand used to be so small. I'm not really sure why I am struggling with her turning 6, 5 was ok. I just really don't want my baby to grow up. Ever! I want to enjoy every minute of every day because she will never be the age she is today again. Maybe this has occurred to me because I have a new baby too. Who I also want to enjoy every minute of, and sometimes I struggle with how to do that at the same time. For years I said I didn't want any more children because I swore I couldn't love another as much. I was so caught up and in awe of this little "miracle" that we had created. One equal parts me and Dean. (well, maybe more me!) And If God had not decided that Isabella needed to come along I believe I would have missed out on another little miracle. I do love them both, I love them differently. I love Aria's drama and flamboyance, and her love for all things pink and sparkly and I love how she needs me. How she always wants me for comfort, and just generally needs to be near me. I love Isabella's personality as it starts to bloom. I think she will be totally different, right now she seems to be a watcher, and more reserved. We will see if that changes. I also love how she needs me, needs me to hold her, needs to see exactly where I am at all times. I love how she is sitting beside me in her bouncy seat kicking her chubby little leg and smiling at me when she sees I noticed. : ) And of course, I love (and this might be my favorite) is how much they both look so much like me! So maybe that is my reflection on motherhood today, I thank God for blessing me with them and I can not imagine my life with out them, either of them. This just might be the best job in the world.........

Hello World!

So Isabella turned 4 months old yesterday and in just a few weeks Aria will be 6! 6 years old! Someone please tell me where my baby went? I think children should come with a remote control, where we can pause, rewind, sometimes fast forward and go in slow motion! Dean and I sat down the other night and looked at all of her baby pictures. We haven't seen them in awhile since my computer was being fixed. It was nice, I miss her being so small, and it reminds me to stop and remember those times. We went out to run some errands today and Aria just complained about everything (it's hot, I'm sweaty, why can't I ride in the stroller). She is, however, my child and I, too, am a complainer.

I got very excited when I went to the mailbox today! I had diaper detergent and cloth wipes that arrived today! I am enjoying this little adventure in cloth diapering I am having. Now if my fabulous new diaper bag would just get here I will be a happy girl! I once again rearranged Isabella's changing table today. I got some cute baskets to put diapers in now everything is right where I need it and can reach it. If only I could get the rest of my house organized! I am working on it slowly! Hopefully I can get it done before the little peapod is mobile!